I tend to be nonchalant (pretending not to care) about what goes on around me. Since I move a lot, i make and lose friends, and to be honest, I hate it. So I put up walls, not real walls, of course, but emotional ones. It's a habit I really need to break. I do my best to not get too attached to people, and it's good in one way but bad in others. It makes me to push people away, when in reality I don't want to push anyone away.
I always think I'm doing the right thing for myself and tell myself "you just don't want to get hurt", but I end up feeling alone. And let's face it; no one likes that feeling. So there you have it. This post just got intense, but I'm just being honest. This is what I don't like about myself, and I want to change it. We all have insecurities or things we wish to change about ourselves, and there is nothing wrong with that.